bitch & conceit

As of this time, I still think engineers are cool

2012-01-28T11:52:00.000+08:00

Heroes are remembered, but legends never die.

2012-01-24T10:46:00.000+08:00

He's such a great man I can't just let this event pass by although it's Chinese New Year for us.

For all that had hit Penn State since November 2011, things didn't seem to get better. On Sunday morning 22 January 2012, JoePa left us for a better place. Before he died, there were even rumors that he already died (what the...). His mother wanted him to be a doctor, his dad wanted him to be a lawyer. But what he gave them, and gave all of us, was more than a football coach. Although I never had the chance to meet him, his values and all that he had done to this university and its students are beyond words. He is a legend and legends never die. WE LOVE JOEPA!

JoePa's statue at Beaver Stadium

Thousands mourn for the legend at Old Main lawn

what's Beaver stadium without JoePa?

our last 'white out' for JoePa from God

To think of it now, I'm so glad I went for JoePa's last 'Whiteout Alabama' game.

Despite the recent controversy in November, we all love Joe Paterno. He didn't do wrong, he just didn't do enough. But whatever, go to hell Jerry Sandusky, and to all child abusers/rapists out there, may you meet Sandusky in hell too.

Rest in Peace!

A new year begins

2012-01-01T12:17:00.000+08:00

This is Dollar when she's sleeping.

*snaps*

This is a closer shot of her sleeping, unnoticed of the picture taking.

This is how she looks at you when she's angry.

I hate people taking photos, especially of me!

Look at those eyes!!!

Dollar says, "I'm too tired to mess with you aka bite you or whatever..."

*hides in between those pillows*

SO CUTE right my dog :)

Happy New Year 2012!

I know what I want for this Christmas

2011-12-08T05:28:00.000+08:00

I've got 5 papers next week while I haven't really been studying. Meanwhile, my iPhone (that was so difficult to be purchased even if you have all the money in the world) is scheduled to arrive tomorrow, which is way earlier than expected. On another note, my mommy and two of her sisters are arriving at America in the next few days. Now, tell me how to not get excited...and focus on my studies! I know I will study, eventually.

Now that Christmas is almost here (I love the decorations!) and that my iPhone is on its way, I had been looking out for iPhone covers. They're some that are really cheap, while the expensive ones do have their reasons to be expensive. Also, irresistible!

My favorite had always been the Swarovski crystals, and something cool like this would cost

$93.81 (one of the not so complicated designs)

$212.65 (more crystals, more money)

this cool flower costs $43.77, no crystals. Not practical though.

$215.78, personalized.

Whoever loves me can try to get me this HAHA!

$234.54, definitely looks stunning together with the price

$359.64 for ONE only, not both

But looking through so many of them, I still think I like this piece the most.

only $46.90, simple and pretty design,

most importantly I like the skin's texture!

But really? $46.90? I'll wait for Santa to give it to me this Christmas :))

Because...this costs less than $5 for TWO cases!

come kiss my heart :)

Pretty vs Ugly

2011-12-01T08:47:00.000+08:00

A smart person will have his/her weakness, weakness that is crazier than what anyone can perceive this smart person can do. On the other hand, a person with disability will have his/her strength, so strong and powerful that no one bothers to care about his/her disability.

Seriously, this is the world that we're living in. I was just told about the craziest thing about someone whom I used to look up to recently.

I love my sister, I had a fabulous Thanksgiving break past week :)

On another note, I need to sit for my final exams in 2 weeks time, then off to travel again~! I'm excited and Christmas is coming!!!

*jingle bells*

Santa, do you know what I want for this Christmas?

Lesson #1

2011-10-23T09:27:00.000+08:00

.....

Date a guy older than you.

Like really, older.

Don't care if it's much older.

Better old than young.

.....

At the very least, he's matured.

.....

.....

Very important lesson!!!

Let go off me

2011-10-02T22:40:00.000+08:00

I want a holiday or just get home. I want to get out of State College in other words. Call this homesick or what, I just need some form of distraction. All I want is to feel all the love, to be lavished with everything good. I'm not trying to sound materialistic, but to think of it, what can I not get when I'm home? If it's not a car or money, at least I get food. If it's not expensive food and the fine dining that I have access to, at the very least, I have friends. Or lastly, even if I'm a loser with no friends, I have love from my family.

When someone says they love you, what does it exactly mean when you don't even feel it? Is it just for the sake of saying or is it because I'm numb/heartless? On the other hand, if you don't mean it, don't say it at all. And this I mean, there's no need for you to just say for the sake of it. Because I see no 'sake'.

Long story short, I don't need unnecessary love or people around me that makes my life only more difficult.

standing firmly at the cathedral in Prague, Czech Republic :D

blinded - NO MORE

2011-09-25T23:19:00.001+08:00

Recently when I sleep, nearly every night I get dreams. And sometimes they're really horrendous. I wake up feeling terrified :S

It's not that I feel nor I think, it is the fact. Please, don't say you understand me. I detest, fully, fully detest, when a *ucktard tells me he understands me. Oh yeah, you know what I'm thinking? I'm not telling you what's in my mind, maybe I would (that's my nature, my weakness I would say, I hate it but gawd, that's just me), but that'll be only the partial story.

Long story short, time will prove everything. I may even be wrong, oops..but let me just assure you. I know what I'm doing, thinking and EXPERIENCING (experiencing shit fyi)!

Just wait - for the day to come - give me 1.5 years time to go. When I graduate, at least~!

with Amanda Chaang, currently crazy about Sims with me

whiteout Alabama game - 10 September 2011

Trade in virtual world

2011-09-09T12:35:00.000+08:00

Fun fact: My professor read out 'piakypiak' in the lecture hall today :D

Trading in the virtual world started on 6 Sept for Econ351 - Money and Banking. So far, I'm doing good but in the stock market, it's either you're the bull or the bear. Good luck to myself, I really want to maintain my rank throughout the semester! *fingers crossed*

Got the shell from Prof. Chud Russell, seems like an inspiration to me :D

While that fleece football pillow, I 'made' it last Friday night (life at PSU when I'm bored and have nowhere to go, I head for Art).

Learn to love the ugly, learn to appreciate the bad

2011-08-22T11:55:00.001+08:00

Born on 20 March 2005, passed away on 20 August 2011. She didn't live as long as we thought she would with us, nevertheless, she will be missed and not be forgotten.

Dogs are so loyal they'll be with you no matter who or what you are. Dogs hide themselves when they're going to die, so that their owners don't see them - which my rottweiler did so. She must have been fighting in her body so long that we didn't notice, hiding the pain till she couldn't take it anymore.

One of the daughter of parents whom were both champions, she was always a tough dog no matter rain or shine. I used to say that I'm a proud owner of this rottweiler, like really proud.

I'm glad I've always adored her, did almost all I could for her, but not all which makes me feel regretful. This dog taught my family a great lesson I believe although she wasn't the closest dog to us all.

Deep in me right now I wish to do and say so much but it'll always be too late. If only...

Her name is Rottie :)

this was the day I brought her into our house, I'm so happy I gave her the chance to do so

It all comes to an end - 6 weeks of my summer program

2011-07-30T15:27:00.002+08:00

I remember exactly what I wore on the first day, how I was greeted by Caitlin Murphy at Zaventum, Brussels airport, how we spotted Dr. Packer and how we jumped into the bus to meet everyone else already there. Last night I heard noises when I was asleep, I know those people were waiting to leave, or were leaving. They were contemplating whether to sleep or not - I could hear them, in case they can't wake up on time to catch the bus ride together with everyone back to Zaventum, Brussels international airport.

I woke up and felt the emptiness of the place. Quiet and empty, this is the guesthouse right now. It's different and saddening.

Yesterday, my roommate Anna Nielsen left. I sent her off till the lift and when the door opened, I remembered how we both took the lift together with our luggages to get to our room, and that was the first day of the program.

This summer program, I've seen and learned so much. I stepped on Luxembourg, Strasbourg, Paris, Reims, Brussels, Bruges, Madrid, Amsterdam, Dusseldorf, Cologne, not forgetting this place I called home (for the 6 weeks), Maastricht. I've done so many things, that I will say was my first time. The feeling's really great, I feel it's like some turning point in my life.

I'm so glad I chose this summer program, thanks to Penn State, CES, and the people that were all involved in it. It's inexplicable how wonderful this program took place in 6 weeks.

The good thing about the end of this program is that I will be meeting my mom and my second sister. I can't wait to see them in Rome!

Memories but not betrayal

2011-07-29T03:59:00.000+08:00

Every piece of memory in my soul is great. From the days of crying to school, fighting with my sister, scoldings from my mother, they may be bitter and thinking back, they may be bad memories. But I say that they're good memories; because they are my family and made me who I am today. Families are to be loved and forgiven. Good memories also include those of the pre-school days, the primary and secondary school days, not forgetting college days. The place and people that I've been through all makes up my memories.

I used to think that I will not regret on the things that I've chosen for myself back in the days, but to think of it now, it stinks to regret. Of how much I thought I was right, that I will be able to survive without the distinct language, I subconsciously realize that I was wrong and yet I choose to ignore it. The more you push, the more it'll come. And I see it coming...

Regardless of those regrets, life's always well except where there is the evils of betrayal. Insofar I have met a wretch in my entire life, and I think that was because I was too naive. Today, I hope there isn't another wretch coming to me, or worse, surrounding me already. Whatever you're implanting on me, anything but betrayal.

Wretch-es, stay away or I'll tear you apart before you try to touch me!

~I used to bring a small pillow to school to nap during 'sleep period' in pre-school,

just like these kids :) ~

Picture for the moment

2011-07-27T01:05:00.000+08:00

no idea what was happening, at least it's a positive one :)

Not so fun facts about me

2011-07-24T07:36:00.000+08:00

1. One more week and I'm done with this Summer Study Program! Five weeks flew, six weeks will be done pretty soon.

2. This means I'll be meeting mom and second sister very soon.

3. I'm quite homesick to be honest, I miss so much at home - people, food, dogs, things, places.

4. I get freak out easily nowadays. Seems like I can't grow up and feels a lot like a coward. Why?

5. I enjoyed Germany, except the strong wind and low temperature in summer. I haven't really seen the other part of Germany that I know I will enjoy.

Enjoying Altbier at Altstadt (old city), Dusseldorf

Thank you Dusseldorf and Cologne! For the rest of the other parts of Germany, wait for me..I'll be there.

Japan or Germany?

2011-07-21T19:34:00.000+08:00

Couldn't focus during lecture today. It could be the one-day-after-midterm effect. Or the sleep that was disturbed, as usual. On another note, I had been thinking about Germany, I'm going to Dusseldorf today and Cologne on Saturday. Not as great as Frankfurt or Berlin. I had been comparing in my mind, between Germany and Japan.

I say GERMANY!

Two things that creep me out

2011-07-17T18:59:00.001+08:00

1. Any horror or thrilling stuff like ghost and the dark.

2. Disgusting things. Any disgusting stuff, anything I deem that disgust me terribly. They traumatize me, really.

Thank you, Amsterdam!

my first part of summer 2011

2011-07-03T06:43:00.000+08:00

As I arrived from JFK on the 9th of May, I slept on my bed with my dogs for some weeks before I had to take leave again. I'm glad I have a great family and great friends around me. All the love they shower me, this is why I miss home.

my great family

part of my great friends since 1999

my best friends, which includes the empty seat reserved for another BFF of ours, ASY

part of my great friends from my awesome high school, SKL <3

also spent time with my relatives

an opportunity for the maternal side to get together during a wedding

Traveling is fun, but nothing beats home. Good night world!

Red mode

2011-06-29T05:25:00.004+08:00

Time after time, I think and rethink. Sometimes I don't know why I'm in such a situation, but perhaps in the longer term, time will definitely tell.

I can be really crazy.

river at Strasbourg, France

And also perfectly normal and serious at times.

at the old city wall, Maastricht, Netherlands

Is what I'm feeling normal?

at the European Ombudsman, Strasbourg, France

Don't know =/

To die for

2011-06-16T02:17:00.000+08:00

1. IRELAND!!!!!!!!!!
2. Engineers are still cool to me, I still love them, until today.

-for now, at least I think :) -

Why we never had to do 'resignation letter' in school

2011-05-31T23:07:00.001+08:00

Of both formal and informal letters, we've done them all back in school. If and only if this question came out in SPM, most students would have scored. Why? Because it's darn bloody easy, we would have done it in Standard 3, being nine years old! :D

Little did I know about this until last night, when I was going to start one of my very own.

May 9: arrived at KLIA

May 10 & 11: applied for jobs online with one eye

May 12: first job interview

May 13: second job interview

May 14: first day of work

I told that I was gonna work for 3 months, intended for only 1, and worked for only 13 days. My very first work experience, the pay was terribly low not surprisingly, while I was so thrilled to start it off. Despite the petrol, toll, time and traffic I had to spend on the road, my workplace was interesting.

Not just an eye opener, an ear opener as well. It happens at every work place, it's true.

13 days weren't quite like 13 days until I made myself count. The moments I had to kill time and the moments time just passed without me realizing.

Why I resigned? For many good and safe reasons.
All that I know, I felt good, I stepped out from the place feeling so good knowing that everything was good.

If there's one thing that most adults always say that is absolutely true, it's that studying is really better than working. This I have to admit.
When you're late to school, people care but not that I care.
When I'm late for work, no one cares but I bloody care...don't ask me why.

There goes the first month of my summer in 2011. For the rest of the time until June 20 (heading to Netherlands for 6 weeks of summer studies), I'll be having time for myself, family and friends.

Wait for me, summer 2012.

To Deloitte and Terex Jaques, I'll be back~!

10 things to do before I die

2011-04-28T00:18:00.000+08:00

1. Visit East Malaysia, I've never been there. I know it's an amazing place.

This is Sabah :)

2. Meet someone not from local but international who will definitely blow me away like Ben Bernanke, Donald Trump, Barack Obama LIVE! Then take a picture with him/her :) Enough of those celebrities that I've met, I think those were pointless.

3. Visit Ireland, and maybe a few more countries as wonderful as it. You get the idea.

4. Meet the underwater world. Say hello to Mr Shark.

5. Learn a partner dance, get to know the steps of cha-cha-cha / salsa / tango, I don't care. As long as it's with a guy.

6. Play a complete song on the piano. I've long fingers, most people get so amazed by them. And right now, I'm quite addicted to the piano.

7. Cycle with some friends or family, overseeing the picturesque place.

8. Visit the amazing Dubai, the amazing architectures of those buildings.

9. Save it for the last.
10. I need to pick carefully what I must really do only I can die.

I'm going home soon. Looking forward to my dogs, my dentist and FOOD, the ultimate happiness of mine!

Ireland is love

2011-04-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

Few days ago, I was studying about the Protestants and Catholics at Northern Ireland, how the Catholics wanted a united Ireland and how the Protestants resisted the Irish Catholics rule. All came to an end with a peace accord, 'Good Friday Agreement' with some help from Bill Clinton. Oh so much I know of the northern part of Ireland...until I stumbled upon KhawHwanJuet's pictures on facebook.

Ireland = a picturesque place

Why? Just google Ireland. For example:

the cliffs of mother Ireland

How stunning and wonderful God's creation can be...

The extensive difference between 45kg and 47kg!

2011-04-14T20:57:00.000+08:00

I want to donate blood so desperately.

1. It saves lives, duh.

2. I'm dying to let my blood cells reproduce, in order words, I want my old blood to go away and make new blood. It's a personal thing for me, not for you to understand.

3. It's PSU vs OSU blood drive. If Penn Staters dislike OSU, why don't all of these fans just try to beat them by taking some time off to donate some blood?! People have 'no time'.

Many years ago, my dad was involved in a blood donation event. The day came and we as a family, were at that place on that very day to show some support, help out on little things and made the place merry. Having spent so much of time there (nearly full time), I basically absorbed much of the facts on before, during, and after donating blood. I even tried the doctor's stethoscope, placed it in my ears and on my cheat, tested my blood pressure and learned how to differentiate blood types through the test, though I have forgotten the latter. Fortunately or unfortunately for me, I didn't get to donate my blood as I was underweight. The legal minimum weight to donate blood in Malaysia is 45kg.

Fine, I was little and cute, perhaps still fragile to donate blood. Then I gained weight of course. Once, I decided to donate blood but was denied as my iron level in my body for that particular day was low.

Trying so hard to not grow fat/obese here in America, I have been controlling my weight, weighing about 46-47kg all these while. And so luckily, yesterday I was rejected to sacrifice some blood in the USA! Why? My iron level was normal, but I didn't weigh at least 110lbs.

The conversion? 110lbs = 49.9kg

For whosoever's sake, you want me to grow up till 49.9kg just to donate pints of blood?! My body shape is already ~~fat~~ bigger, and I can't afford to grow a few more kilograms just to donate blood! In conclusion, I guess I just have to try to attend some blood drive back in Malaysia to really get rid of my old blood!

I make a difference

My sticker, my appointment with America Red Cross at 3.15pm

On the other hand, at least I got a 50% off coupon at the Campus Candy store, and entered to competition to stand a chance to win some ipod shuffle, etc.

i want to be the bitchiest girl you've ever met, because then you'll hate me, leave me, and not take me for granted at the very least!

2011-04-13T09:53:00.000+08:00

Too much to express

2011-04-07T09:36:00.000+08:00

Stay away!!!!!!! Go away!!!!!!! I hate ALL that is going on now!!!!!!!

:'(

i love PAINTING :)

2011-04-03T03:27:00.000+08:00

Since when?

I took up Art classes since young, my Art always looked funny, but little did I know, nothing stops me from producing funny Art.
I like C O L O R S. I enjoy coloring, painting, it makes me feel good, like really good! :))

6 years ago when I went to Metropolitan Museum, I did not make it. In 2011, I made my way to the gallery and it was...just splendid.

Inspired by Vincent van Gogh,

oil on canvas

what I love about it? The texture :)

Also by van Gogh,

oil on canvas

what I love about it? Also the texture, especially on the sky ~!

Thus,

paint on wooden box

Far from the two above, but I just love to touch the texture :)

Exclusively by yours sincerely :D

KarYan says:

2011-03-31T21:45:00.000+08:00

I don't think I know the true definition of stress. I know what stress is, but maybe I don't know that I am in the trap. Maybe I am denying it, but some symptoms I just encountered, I have to admit I was not okay lately.

To reiterate,

According to the columnist, ways to avoid or release stress:

Plan - Work ahead - Exercise - Yoga - Melatonin - Breathing - Meditation - Sex - Deal one at a time

It's interesting to know how melatonin works. Too much of stress, lack of melatonin, hard to fall asleep or you'll stay awake, or, you'll enter REM. Pretty much to relate to myself lately. Pop a melatonin, it helps your memory when you study, makes you go to bed. :)

Meditation doesn't make all things turn back to okay, but at least, at least, for the time being it keeps problems away from your mind. It's too 'for the old' or whatsoever you may think it's like, but I learned how to meditate. And trust me, it works like as if God just entered your soul!

Sex is good. Just play safe. I was quite intrigued when I read it. But, whatever. Just remember, play safe. :)

I'm still alive, still living baby. :)

To be different, ask me; how am I living.

let me unleash

2011-03-24T21:27:00.001+08:00

...myself at sorrow

Last year of my teen~age

2011-02-19T12:40:00.002+08:00

Disclaimer: no pictures for virtual birthday celebrations :) :(

I know this is a tad late, but doesn't matter. This is life at State College. Good, but ain't that good depending on what aspects you look at.

6th Feb 2011, Los Angeles, California

Birthday girl at Disneyland, Anaheim. Friggin' third time, but still fun :D

~ with good company and let the magic begin inside ~

if it's Disneyland, you shouldn't miss out the turkey leg. Aweshome posshum~!

princess pkhee & princess ezau

Dinner at Morton's Steakhouse at Beverly Hills

my personalized birthday menu :D

From service to the ambience, from the food to the toilet, all was perfectly good. No flaws, just that I forgot to visit the toilet when many celebrities had before, considering the fact that they visited this fine dining before. That's my birthday card from all the staff at Morton's by the way :]

~Thanks Ezau for the dinner, thanks mom for the sponsor, thanks LA for the wonderful world ~

it's a real good place, FOOD/PEOPLE/PLACE/EVERYTHING-THAT-MUST-NOT-BE-FORGOTTEN

greatest bun ever tasted (7 stars)

scallop with bacon (5 stars)

sister's favourite cheese & onion soup (5 stars)

great service (7 stars)

great preview of food selection (7 stars)

main course - lamb (6 stars)

good steak (6 stars)

love it medium done

godiva chocolate birthday cake with vanilla ice cream (7 stars)

great company (7 stars)

next stop - Morton's at NYC?

7th February, Pollock Commons, PSU at State College

or should I say, when I was 'pranked' to collect a book from Sara on behalf of Marcus...you get the idea.

19 cupcakes, cupcakes, CUPCAKES :D

Sara. LinDong. ZhiRan. LiuYi. Xavier. Michelle. Fiona. BoMing. MengXi. Lemmy

people that I was fated to meet at SCE.

grateful to have nice people around, thanks for the birthday gifts too.

Not forgetting,

MARCUS CHIAAAAAA!

thanks :D

xoxo

CNY & pre-birthday 2011 at LA

2011-02-06T15:51:00.000+08:00

1. On 4th Feb, Friday, my family and relatives sang me the birthday song through skype when I arrived at LA. It was the 3rd day of CNY in Malaysia, my lunar birthday. Difference is that I normally get angpaos, not this time.

2. Today, my family and relatives wished me happy birthday as it's 6th Feb in Malaysia. Difference to me is that it's more of friends wishing me in school or through phone yearly.

3. I'm so happy and contented right now. It's not even the 6th as of now, and I've been through 2 days of birthday. Ezau, Marcus and Frankie just had a very good CNY dinner celebration just now. Simple, pathetic you may think, but most memorable to me <3

part of the reason why I love Los Angeles

my beloved sister, Ezau - the one I grew up with

pictures speak a thousand words

18 turning 19, sipping black sesame & taro tapioca, gaining weight in State College & Los Angeles

awesome food that sometimes you can only find in Los Angeles, not my home country Malaysia

food prepared by Ezau, Marcus & I for dinner with Franklin Wu

yee sang

-why we had some awesome stuff (abalone, twisties, mamee monster, dried sate, dried meat, etc), it's because my best mother in the world shipped them all the way from Malaysia, to complete our lives in America <3 -

I miss steamboat with daddy :(

poker cards, feeling more new year-ish :D

cards with gold chocolate coins (malaysian product) as $

4. Going to Disneyland tomorrow for my free birthday pass. :D

missing my cute doggies badly

CNY '11

2011-02-03T12:51:00.000+08:00

1. Reunion dinner at State College at Bryan and Sara's place with Stallone, Amanda, Ben and John. Viewed yeesang through the computer. Listened to CNY songs through Youtube. tomyam soup with fishballs, meatballs, fuchuk, beef, taopok, my favorite. Another dish of chicken and broccoli + cauliflower + scallop mushroom gravy.

2. My camera's retarded. Because I can take pictures, but can't find my cable to transfer the pictures? Thus, the many description and picture-less.

3. More than 200 flights had been cancelled domestically. Flight to LA this Friday for CNY with Ezau. Hope it will not get affected, and the weather is predicted to be better. I want abalone, dried pork meat and yeesang. I want my summer clothes, all shipped by mom~!

4. I received a DHL package today. Got my second birthday gift. First gift was from my mom 2 weeks ago when I was at LA. A greeting card from 8 wonders of the world. A simple card that had a big bunny to paint a big smile on me :D

5. I'm turning old, in 4 days time according to US time, 3 days time according to Malaysia's time.

6. I wanna go for summer study abroad!!!!!!

Facts for me right now

2011-01-31T10:27:00.001+08:00

1. Work, work, work hard until Wednesday. Obama's coming on Wednesday. Might see him.

2. After Wednesday, I can fly.

3. Reunion dinner on Wednesday with Malaysians. :)

4. Reunion dinner on Thursday with Chinese? Get it on man HuJinTao's people!!!

5. Flying to Los Angeles on Friday woot woot WOOT! Can't wait for mom's shipped with love yeesang, abalone and bahkua <3

6. Disneyland / World of Colors / Six Flags ? To pick on for my birthday :D

7. It's hardly I really drool for something, and this time I drooled until it went to my dreams. Natalie and her mom, my eldest sister and I at Sungei Wang manicure place.
Damn, I like fashion with leopard prints. I saw a pair of leggings from Uniqlo with leopard prints, but didn't get it as it was full length. If only it was three quarters or shorter :)
Then I saw a super cool jacket from Morgan. Didn't buy it as was afraid it would be super obvious, 'the leopard girl' or 'that leopard jacket again'.

According to Marcus (guys really know nothing about girls) it's 'opee'. :)
According to Natalie the bimbo, (missing her 100x) it's none other than

Katy Perry's O.P.I

it's not just a nail polish, it's one that can make wonders! :)

Thinner layers seem to make it crack more, whereas thicker layers give an almost leopard print effect!!!

Her collection.

LOOK AT THOSE PRINTS!!!

salivatesss

Reflections

2011-01-16T07:25:00.000+08:00

Lubbie & I at wedding dinner, themed red and white.

met KamLeng at a dinner function, where she was part of the stage dancers :D

GBUS271 project - taking some underprivileged children to Zoo Negara, together with mom, sis and Casius.

Stella and I at my commencement at Taylor's ADP.

dinner with girls <3

Outing with high school peeps <3

Zau's and my reflection at the toilet; Baltimore & Ohio Railroad Museum

Zau, mom & I at University of Pittsburgh

Marc & I at University of Southern California's Trojan :D

Mom's home-cooked dinner at senior Bryan Ooi's place <3

I miss my pets :(

Currently at Los Angeles, my confessions and I

2011-01-15T18:31:00.000+08:00

It's 2.01am at Los Angeles and it'll be 5.01am at State College. I've been at this country since 29 Dec and so much yet so little that has happened. Reason why I'm at Los Angeles now is because it's a holiday on Monday to commemorate Martin Luther King. Oh that wonderful, inspiring speech..

Spring semester kicked off and there goes 1 week. Since the day I arrived, I strolled around LA for 2 days before kicking off to State College, a kampung you can define but I'm loving my life there, somehow. Orientation lasted for a week while Marcus and I didn't dwelve ourselves too well. We were at Pittsburgh to savor Pritani Bro's cheese steak, visited Museum of Natural History thanks to my sister's interest, seen the whole city from the top of that place. At the land of Maryland in the city of Baltimore for 2 days and 1 night, we tasted the most famous crab cake, visited Baltimore & Ohio train museum, seen Johns Hopkins University and shou many, shou many.

at Johns Hopkins University

at Baltimore, a park where you can see the whole of the place and most importantly, the flag behind that says it all :]

The good thing State College had done to me is that I've learnt to adapt quite well, I like my new life there. No more shitty shitty bang bangs that I get back in Malaysia at least, something that I've always wanted. I don't mind being isolated from the world, least the good that I see is that I get to focus more on what I want. It's true that I had been shitting much back then.

While I feel like home in LA now, I discovered something awesome about myself.

1. There is a real need for me to sleep on this bed, that is bigger than a single bed that I have in my dorm. That seriously sucks...but oh well, ignore the fact, I'm still fine. Just let me endure this bed's size for the moment :]

2. I haven't sat on a toilet bowl for a week I'm not kidding. Come on, Pennsylvania or at least State College's toilets don't supply seat covers, unlike at other parts of America. Who wants to sit on a public toilet bowl? My butt will just rot, until I found myself in 2801 Ellendale Place, Los Angeles. My true home in America and I'm loving it.

15 more days before I leave my beloved country

2010-12-18T14:15:00.000+08:00

I'm going to Pennsylvania to study. Many people got deceived (no intentions of deceiving) and thought that I will be going to U Penn (the oh so chun-ted one,Whar Whar Wharton School of Business). No, it's Pennsylvania State U instead. Of how much I didn't liked a state school or a school that has the word 'state' in it, I will be attending one for 2 and a half to 3 years.

Truthfully speaking, I only dreamed of going to one particular university to study, or so called my dream uni. I applied to it and had another one as a back up. There gave me two choices and as a back up, most people will apply to at least 5 schools. For me - in short, I applied to a total of THREE schools only. And out of three, I got accepted by two schools. Well, after much discussion, negotiation and research (a little), I made up my mind and it was set. Paid school deposit, booked air ticket, went on with further procedures and that was it. I'm flying off.

As of today, I'm stuck at home just like yesterday because I'm tired. Of going in and out of the house, I now have relatives over my place, so that gives me a reason to stay at home, at least :] While my chest feels painful god knows why =.=

I'm nearly done with most of my things (I think), except for the dentist, the hairdresser and one doctor for my oh so sensitive and beautiful skin that is proned to eczema and another doctor for my injections. Like at least 3 needles, 1 blood test and I don't want to know more.

I'm more and more afraid of needles as I grow older, while I used to be brave getting jabs. Shoots!

I'm gonna miss my family, my dogs, my friends, my bed, my house, the car I drive everyday, bah kut teh and many, many food and others in Malaysia!

December '10

2010-12-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

1. Today's the last class of the term.

2. I tripped on some stupid wire/line that was super super low and invisible at approximately 7.10am today. Didn't fall flat on my face, my knees saved me but I have pretty painful and beautiful bruises on my knees.

I was as good as this, except that I wasn't carrying food but my bag, files and car key dropped. I teared, not surprisingly.

3. I had my student visa interview today. I'm glad my tourist visa wasn't cancelled, while the lady who asked for my old passport and looked at my tourist visa said I look cute in the picture. I passed the interview, duhh..

4. I'm collecting my Uggs from Aussie tomorrow. It'll be a half suit, not full.

5. Dad assigned me to go out tomorrow, sort of can have fun while doing him a favor. But I need to ground myself at home. To study. FINALS, STUDY.

6. I've been studying for tests and quizzes, and for once I feel I know nuts for Biology, American Government and Calculus.

7. ADP is really stupid. At this time as of last year, I already got back from Langkawi for a short holiday. It's already December, everyone's having fun and I'm indirectly forced to 'have fun' because events are pouring in and I am involved. I can't study for nuts. I'm shit. FML

I love Mr Pu. I think he's the awesomest lecturer I've encountered in ADP.

Some things about me for the moment

2010-11-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

1. I-20's in the house!

2. Cheers with Dollar. We both had 2 extraordinary rounds of exercise. Dollar had 2 Feeling so energized, yet I feel my body dying of energy.

3. I want to laser my hand. I thought I am irritating, but eczema irritates me. I feel so depress every time I look at it.

The rest are the same, old, lousy, annoying, normal, routines which are not worth to be taken up of my time to be posted here. Good bye readers :]

Happy Diwali!

2010-11-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

Mom's awesome 7 dishes + soup for dinner

Meow it's fresh again, and bloodyyyy :D

Pamper me with cake, and more cakes

2010-11-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

Cakes are love.

I can never get enough of cakes. Immediately after I had the above, I still craved for more.

Next target --> pandan cake, cheese cake.

Creme brule.....

I'm shou cute you know you wanna kiss me!

2010-10-29T22:52:00.001+08:00

You don't simply do something intelligent, just because it hurts, it kills. =S

Life still goes on, and when the going gets tough, the tough get going!

I'm still coping, I'm still surviving well (I think) with food, love, care, car, cash, credit card...you know them...

Wooo look at that am I not cute ^.^ !

Urmm I meant Dollar and Lubert ! Dollar trying to move home after 2 rounds at the park when her owner insists on 1 more round at least....3 rounds!

Woo-hoo this is me <3

I am shouu cute come kiss me!

Happy Halloween & Happy Anniversary to my parents :D

When you think you have no more strength to stand back up...

2010-10-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

...never give up, or you'll never stand back up again.

Perfect for on an extremely free and relaxing Friday night, where it had been reserved to be watched during the worst time, or at least I think so...

"You are loved, and everything is gonna be okay, hold on".

Constipation aftermath

2010-10-21T18:22:00.000+08:00

For the first time in my life, I'm having more than 3 pimples on my face. I now have at least, 10 pimples. When I used to have one pimple per month, for my menstrual cycle. Now I have more than 10!

After all the frustration since last week, this week is finally coming to an end - tomorrow. Then I'll go consult the dermatologist for my skin, again.

Tell me how to be not sick.

While mom's home cook food is still appealing to me, nothing else is..after a day of shits!

Urgh constipation!

2010-10-14T16:49:00.000+08:00

1 week detox diet is over. I had no stones, somehow. Back to normal food, had Pao Xiang BKT for lunch. Tasted so good I was enjoying the whole meal, so happy despite being a little upset. Malaysian food seriously rocks. Meanwhile, I'm craving for nasi lemak. Can you imagine, I stay in Malaysia and can crave for our local food. What happens when I pursue my education outside?

Speaking of education, I hate college. I swear, I seriously hate college. Thus, I get constipation often. I'm so annoyed. I never liked this shit called American Degree Transfer Program. It's like going through hell. Heck, I was so wrong man..A Levels could be 10 levels of hell but it carries you somewhere. ADP is all day play and it takes you to 18 levels of hell. I swear, I regret my choice.

I'm not gonna list out the 10 reasons why I hate college. It makes me even more sick. Enough said.

I love Pao Xiang at SS15. Rocks socks.

Hundreds of Orgasms in Torture Room

2010-10-02T23:59:00.001+08:00

Something that I always wanted, something that I had been searching/dreaming for some time, I thought today would be the perfect one for me.

If there was one thing that will make your muscles/veins/arteries let loose without any pain or medication or so you say, I want it. After 18 years of moving up and down, in and out, don't you feel your muscles and all need a break and restart all over again?

I was told to strip, wrap my body with a towel and sarong, put on some weird/funny looking paper undergarment and sit in the hot tent for 15 minutes. I felt like a tortoise, my head was out. More than 5 minutes later my sweat began to come out from the inside, apparently. More than 10 minutes later and I felt as if I was running out of breath. My neck stretched longer to breath in cooler air. It was quite good, while I could feel my heart beating so fast and my skin was perhaps 2% cooked - reddish in color.

If I'm not wrong it was the shiatsu massage, or whatsoever you call it - mind you, completely different from those massages that I have experienced in life. Or was it just my muscles that were too tensed...I experienced a variety of reactions - if only there was a camera to record my facial expressions. I didn't know whether to cry or to laugh, was it joy or was it stillness.

My sister asked from the room next door if I was at the circus.

I felt like as if I was having hundreds millions of orgasm, in a torture chamber. Right now, I'm feeling the aftermath. More ache, more pain. Apparently it'll be relieved after a few days, where it'll be the real nirvana.

Will see then.

Call me FATTY, I crave for any kind of food anytime.

2010-09-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

Of all the ups and downs, ins and outs, they are a freaking cycle. Whether you like it or not, you gotta accept it. Too sick to mention them, life's not worth mentioning those.

While nothing but FOOD makes me go o0o-la-laAa ~ !

latest and best satisfaction Itachoco Monaka, something that can make your day

baked with love by Cheryl Leong yumm mmmm

Okay, more food but not the right time now.

I think i-City...is a killer.

More of a waste of electricity than to promote tourism etc.

Meanwhile, people....we just gotta stay strong and finish strong.

Pedicure disappointment :(

2010-09-14T08:47:00.000+08:00

First batch nicely done.

Dried it for nearly an hour..later smeared thanks to my pair of Lewre flats worn for barely 10 minutes.

Went back to pedicure center, didn't get to do it as I was in a hurry and the lady was busy.

Third time at pedicure center,

Finally!

Now which is better?

I picked purple because I like purple and I love yam. Yam cake/biscuit thingy from Taiwan, rm1 yam ice-cream, and lastly, the crystal skin mooncake that is either white, green or purple in color? The one that you gotta fridge it, if you know what I'm saying.

I wanna play lanternsssss :]

It's a very, very, good morning

2010-09-10T09:22:00.002+08:00

I was awake by 7.07am since I slept considerably early last night + to bid my parents goodbye for their Raya holiday trip.

It's raining at this hour and the freshness of the morning makes me go wooooooooo.

I checked my email to see 2 exceptionally long emails. No it didn't irritate me. It's never about the length, it's about the intention, the tone and the manner. :]

I'm meeting grandma Leong today.

Attn: HOW WEI QUAN

Good luck in Ohio.

What is past history is history, what is done is finished, and bygones are bygones. :]

My current gross life

2010-09-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

I can't laugh nor sneeze hard. It hurts my stomach. Did too hardcore stretches one shot last evening. My whole body's aching badly.

I was poked almost 10 times with a needle today. Screw eczema. I had been consulting the dermatologist for NINE freaking years.

I was serenaded with ding dong song today when I requested for a song. Try listening to that song if you have never.

I need to re-do a homework that I have actually done, submitted, but MIA since I placed it at the teacher's front door. If only I know who stole it, gonna smack the fellow straight in the face and push him off 7th floor.

My life is awesome.

Japanese food at Subang Jaya = utter disappointment

2010-09-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

Buka puasa-ing for Japanese food in Subang is making me feel more and more urghhhh!

First impression of this kanpachi at Rakuzen:

tak cukup thin, thin lagi...tell your chef i'm gonna eat your chopstick! tsk tsk tsk

Have you not seen restaurants serving thicker pieces of fish?

Or as if your price charged is not equivalent to thicker pieces?

Either the standard is deteriorating or my taste buds are sick of Japanese food at Subang. Which?

'Cause their business are all so damn good.

While the food are really no longer up to par!

Or is it other peoples' taste buds are all spoiled? Ordered some salmon with some sort of yam on top, salmon tasted disgusting for it wasn't fresh AT ALL =.=

Ate at Sushi Zanmai the other day and ended up pretty disappointed as well. Ordered some green tea latte and the milk was so strong, so suitable for stray dogs to drink.

Was so attracted by the caterpillar roll on the menu and hell, when it came...

Yeah pictures are really for illustration purposes only, the friggin caterpillar roll was too far similar to the one on the menu. Hello Sushi Zanmai?

Screw it man! Wait till I get my butt to LA at America to really satisfy myself! While daddy said,

''piak piak piak in your mouth'' :D

*portion was full at the beginning*

My shooou cute dog

2010-09-03T08:10:00.000+08:00

Honk honk, people don't block the way!

Ridicule

2010-08-31T17:18:00.002+08:00

Look at an animal. Or imagine one if there isn't one for you to look at. Don't just glance at it and wonder what kind of plain dumb statement it is stated here.
Because if you actually look closely and observe, that's if you really need to, though animals ada otak tiada akal, I honestly think that....

No I'm not saying that someone I dislike is like an animal. Or someone I dislike is worse than an animal. Or my rottweiler is 100x better than you, yes, you that I dislike 10000x.

We know that humans are orang utans' closest relative, but juxtaposing between this two:

Common sense tells us that it is safer to go to the one on the right rather than left.
Common sense tells us that the right one is cute, the left one is frightening.
Common sense tells us that both are coming to an extinction....so on and so forth.

Question is, if those two were role models, which will you follow, in terms of character behavior?

Behavior = the way in which an animal or person acts in response to a particular situation or stimulus

I'm not quite safe to come close, neither am I cute but rather aggressive, I may be coming to an extinction I don't know, but I'll pick the koala.
Just, the koala.

As I'm in the midst of picking up the beauty of grace.

Cotton in My Ears

2010-08-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I'd rather be isolated in an island, all alone by myself. Provided there's food and a little bit of others, enough for me to survive.

Don't come near me, I didn't ask for it or leave me alone.

Give me a break!

Why don't we 3 ikut tikus naik Genting? :]

Fall '10

2010-08-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

When there's diversity, there's so much to think about, talk about, complain about, argue about, fret about, shit about, all that you can think of just because we are all different from the top to the bottom, from the inside to the outside and back inside...and at the end of the day, the world is still round and here we go again!

2 weeks of summer and I spent one week overseas and 1 week home. Overseas was when we flew to Australia, trying on AirAsia with the side factor I told my mom on what I was perceived about it. Never mind about the source, but yeah, it's better sometimes you stick to your own mind. I call that diversity!

Australia was quite an eye opener to me, I realized and learned some stuffs. To be frank, you say Australia, I say America! In terms of shopping, America. In terms of food, America. Vacation in Australia or America, I say America. Okay I don't wanna sound like I'm promoting this on behalf of Obama or whatsoever, that's just from my experience and my own point of view. What's worse, I might even end up studying in Australia for the other half of my degree sigh!

The trip where I slept most of the time, relaxed, cuddled on the bed, tugged the comforter all over, suffered from coldness as clothes were enough but weren't thick enough and lastly, captured least pictures.

Truly from Gold Coast & Brisbane : ~

Note: explicit and unimportant pictures of any events were removed.

shopping at Harbor Town, less diversity unlike America. Less designs, less choices, less discounts, less brands, more prices!

except for UGGS. :]

I was promised a full set, if I transfer to places that mom discourages me to ie Iowa, Ohio, Minnesota, Indiana. To add on, if I had more choices, I wouldn't want to either!

Real gun shooting brought to sis and I by beloved bro. Thankfully we weren't given Desert Eagle, I wanted to get out of the place so badly, it was so loud and scary but was worth the try <3

me and kangaroo + joey.

That kid on the right in black makes me wanna laugh every time I see this picture. He tried to force joey out until I freaked him and he let go. Cute!

our first ride in Dreamworld.

Roller coasters scare the shoot out of you besides reminding you that you're old. Older, more frightening! Anyhow, Six Flags bring it on!

at Tangalooma Resort, Moreton Island.

like steak, but pretty much lovable <3

friggin' cold at Mt. Cootha, peak of Brisbane <3

Fall kickstarted and it is really different this time. I saw least familiar cars parked around (good thing, they don't snatch parkings with you), I saw least familiar faces around, I felt less home-y (after spending nearly 2 years at ADP) and lastly, I felt old. Especially when you need to write down your ID number, it starts of with 0901H, revealing the period you first enrolled: January, 2009.

Since the day I stepped down as the Deputy President of Be_ADP, things happened. Prom, commencement which was none of my business but most of my friends' businesses, farewell events, goodbyes, good lucks being passed around and there they go. I'm not trying to express any sorrow or jealousy, neither am I fretting about these because I chose it since the beginning. It was my plan all along and my parents agreed with me.

My 6th and last term at ADP, hopefully making way for me to America, to somewhere I want, somewhere I thought of and somewhere I desire. If you're telling me it's Ohio/ Iowa/ Illinois/ Minnesota or similarly, I'm going to Australia.

Classes for the semester:-

Biology: I keep thinking I'm in Chemistry =.=

American Government: bring it on Politics, but I friggin demand a good grade from a quite difficult lecturer

Calculus 2: Hello, I see you again and I might bid goodbye to you very soon

Business Communication: Keep me excited but not too busy please!

Gotta run!

Sorry for the lack of updates, but doesn't tell that I MIA. So many people accusing me =/

D-Day version 2.0

2010-08-07T10:51:00.000+08:00

Isn't the Normandy invasion, it's where my mom, sis and I gotta pack for Brisbane tonight, thus it's version 2.0.

Not hyped up yet but I believe I won't be able to sleep in the plane tonight sighhh.

While I dreamt of my brother last night, meaning I saw him before I see him, how cool!

Time to hit the beach and leave darling doggies home =(

Will be away for a week, stay tuned!

*gives expression* =0

Paging for LJR

2010-08-03T12:56:00.001+08:00

Ng Kar Yan please do not take History for granted.
Ng Kar Yan please do not take History for granted.

Ng Kar Yan please do not take History for granted.

Please start studying.

Brain malfunctioned.

Leong Jia Ru - if you know what we both want now.

i know i look like a monster with strings in my mouth, i used to tie strings around my teeth, yeah that was me. but i want you so badly now. :[

World Religion Psychedelic

2010-08-02T19:26:00.001+08:00

The clock was ticking. My hand raised to mid air and I waited for my turn. I jogged out of the classroom hoping to see my guinea pig outside the class at least. Or wandering around the place, at least. Pig wasn't there. I went to the toilet, into the cubicle, mind my own business and washed my hands. Fingers crossed, I hoped to see my guinea pig before I enter the classroom at leassst.

I turned the door knob and I saw the light.
I didn't see my guinea pig. I saw my Savior.
I saw an angel. His name was not Gabriel.
He wasn't Gabriel the angel, he wasn't expected but he just declared ''far distance relatives'' with me, urghh last night was the time!

he was known as the monster at the time when this picture was captured

hint: in blue

clearly zis isn't him but zis is my b*tch, Loo Sue Ann :]
picture credits to her

His name is Lee Phui Jing - my Savior for the day <33333

Sometimes it makes me wonder...when there are so many nice people around you...how do you reward them and let them know that you are grateful to have them?

I'm a kid that rebels

2010-07-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

Or so you call me the eighteen year old girl that rebels.

Heck, home is too damn comfortable. Never ask me to surrender stuffs that I desire, never tell me to do something that I personally have no interest in. Just basically don't ****ing force me to do something that I don't want to.

Because then, I will do it in spite. I won't hate you but I'll get pissed off. Enough!

Morning world!

2010-07-24T11:26:00.000+08:00

I wake up to see the sun shine into my room, these roses gleaming before my eyes !

Fresh and they smell good baybehhhh.

I think I have goitre. I feel my throat literally bulging out and it is so painful when I did drink a lot of water lately. I'm as good as dumb now :[

Sometimes jokes can be really......*indescribable* When you get nominated as Prom Queen out of the blue ~ !

Time for or-ga-nic noodles by mummy. I smell it coming from the kitchen yum yummm

Meow

2010-07-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

Fresh and anew pedicure :]

While my throat dries up every 5 seconds and my stomach expands into the shape of a barrel of water.

I’m sweating like a cow in my room now =(

2010-07-21T22:39:00.077+08:00

My room’s air-con was in a holiday state for the past 2 days and woo-la-la, didn’t noticed(sort of noticed, but didn’t bother) that the battery died and it can’t be on now (when I can actually steal from other controls).

Finally I had dinner at home tonight and I realized that it’s nearly a week I had dinner, ALL OUT. Maybe that’s the main cause why I was terribly sick yesterday and am recovering. When LOHAS reduced from 100% to 50% and sometimes 30% + outside heaty food + lack of water, my immune system was killed indirectly; which added on to my mom’s factor for asking me to pick Australia instead of America.

LOHAS is good, home is too good, my mama is the best!

I have to say that there was a partial transformation in my life since June 2010.

Woot time to upload pictures since the day I remember.

tarts to start off the day ^.^

Batu Caves - realized that I had been traumatized by monkeys since last December in Langkawi

Masjid Negara - oh all guys in shorts and girls were so sexy in that purple outfit worn by thousand non- muslim visitors

say AMEN

St. Mary's church - where I will carry out my wedding ceremony

beloved Buddhist lecturer at Buddhist temple

one of the 12 chinese zodiacs at Thean Hou temple

annual summer ktv session with the holiday-ers

when mama ditches me for dinner last minute, we ended up attending ADP's PROM at Sunway. Yeah ADP PROM took place liaooo ~ !

the day I stepped down as the Deputy President and felt old

ktv with the primary gang where new creative talents were discovered

World Religion - Buddhism presentation which was not very well but turned out to be excellent for the lecturer :]

the babe who bought me ByeByeFever, god of anti-fever which seriously works likeeee GOD!

dress from UCB friggin simple and plain yet rm400 I only want the color!
check out the guay (guy+gay) in black, he brought me to the clinic yesterday and kidnapped me to college today! While my mom took revenge so it's okay :]

p/s: the plastic bag of fruits, thinking of it now is FRIGGIN FUNNY!

mom's and mine, feet covered with similar shoes, accidentally on purpose :]

another accidentally on purpose, same kind of pedicure, different color. Next manicure pedicure session tomorrow, what's my color? :]

That's all for now folks. Other pictures for the month aren't with me. I realize I like to update this space when there's a test nearby, coming Friday! I'm excited for History mid-term, yet I'm not prepared at all. Then there's ADP PROM 2 Halloween for me as I'm getting dressed as a vampire. Time for medicine =.=

Twilight tsk tsk tsk !

2010-07-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

Have I found you

Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth

Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

I like the song, but not the movieeeeeee T_____T

Nearly dozed off, didn't know the movie was coming to an end, didn't know the climax, everything seemed so blur and slow.....okay it's over. It's a movie for everyone, just not my type.

Okay, just one picture to please Twihard fans. =S
*

Batu Caves tomorrow, more meals coming up when I'm under LOHAS now.
Then awesome possum moments where History draft due on Monday, History assignment paper due on the 16th, Friday with a quiz for Abrahamic religions tsk tsk tsk.
Correspondingly, Buddhism presentation on the 19th, isn't it too fast? What's the one week off before finals for? lebih shizzzz
Well I have to say, they are not many, just I know nothing for all. I love History, I love it all, just not the assignment~! =S

Oh I just found out today that I'm a Taoist, not Buddhist! Can't help it, we always say in chinese, pai sen / hua ren. There wasn't any buddhist taoist confucians thing going on 0_0

I love fridge magnets btw ^.^

awake so early.?

2010-07-07T07:22:00.000+08:00

Reason why I am awake is because I woke my dad up for him to settle some papers, then get ready for his flight to Shanghai. Sighh I was even awake in the middle of the night, scared! T__T

Why can't I get rid of this...my brother says that they are just movies. I think they are just so disturbing. Oh I dragged my mom who was on the phone halfway to watch with me and ended up, still 'thrilled' at the wee hours and finally, on the lights to get back to bed. Coward, useless?

Yeah.

So sad dad's leaving boo. Back to bed, I reminded him to go to Norway's pavilion - the hard to appreciate whatever is inside, but never mind, he has to try NORWAY's water :]

Oh I just thought of flying back to the bed but it's 7.20am, I wake up at 7.30am for college. Hmm Wrel....

If I happen to marry Lee DeWyze, it would be because of his sexy voice.

2010-06-27T12:58:00.000+08:00

(I always dreamt of marrying singers when they're voice is too good.)

But bear in mind, chances of us getting divorce is very high.

Then it makes me think to hire him as my personal singer who serenades me every night and whenever I request so.

Sadly, he gets paid by me and his income will not be shared equally/partially with me. In other words, I have to fork out money :[

Thus, marrying him is still better but all he does is sing and play the guitar (or slightly more but still, in the music world), which is as good as nothing compared to the kind of man that I want ! Or more like every girl out there dreams to marry.

I grew up liking the songs that my brother listened to when he showers nearly everyday, (when sometimes he would imitate them in an obnoxious manner, which I secretly enjoy at times). Shania Twain was good and I liked her appearance in the recent American Idol.

Of all contestants, Lee DeWyze's Still the One was too good (for me at least) that I can't stop listening to it until today.

*switches topic due to brain malfunction*

Abraham Lincoln was assassinated before the 10% Plan could be carried out and the assassinator was none other than John Wilks Booth who wanted to take down all politicians so that the Southern region could rise. Meanwhile, Andrew Johnson (from South, picked by Lincoln as his Vice) became the next president and came out with the 13th Ammendment also known as the Presidential Reconstruction. Err he wasn't that good and the congress finds way to impeach him. Ulysses Grant was then after the next president weuuuuuu my life is complete arghhh I only finished the first chapter!

*switches topic*

Dad's leaving for Shanghai next week and somehow I feel so heavy hearted as the house will be super quiet omg why why why. Then my mom says I must go for prom! MY MOM! Believe it or not you have no idea what illness is this 18 year old suffering from. *switches topic* Somehow I love June life is filled with so much excitement will blog about it soon! :]

If only I'm the daughter of Haibao (mascot of Shanghai Expo 2010),

if there's such existence...hmmmmm

When you're given a variety of new pillows but still choose the oldest one of yours :)

2010-06-25T21:36:00.001+08:00

Because it had been with you the longest, over the sunny and tough days, and over the cloudy and sleepless nights. If this is true, then who do those other pillows long to go home with ?

Everyone deserves a chance, even a second chance when time permits.
But it's not every pillow that will suit you. The size, the shape, the material, whatever that takes into account to make a pillow.

So what do you do when you find a particular pillow that doesn't suit you? Give it to your younger brother or sister, or even

your dog..?

What do you do exactly? It hurts to know.

~ . ~ . ~

the days when words from my mom jolts me and the night when you stay at home to accompany your mom like the very usual, I know. What's coming this August ? ? ?

Do you people need to do this to me?

2010-06-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

1. Concentrate for Wrel test.
2. Attend japanese class, complete homework.
3. Execute my plan!
4. Concentrate on History test.
5. Continue my plan!

Stop asking me to do things against my will because if that is so, I will do it in spite, and I'll rebel. Don't try me for I will really do so.

If fresh roses eventually wilt...

2010-06-18T22:15:00.001+08:00

...what about humans and relations?

So I'm back at this cozy spot looking at the computer with Kiss the Rain playing behind me. No I'm not that dumb to play it and make myself feel like crying. With two other similar songs repeating back to back which makes the whole thing not so dull, at least :]
Imagine one song playing repetitively compared to THREE songs!

Some people know that it's a song that fails to make you suck back your tears (perhaps it's me and only me, not you) and the some people includes my mom. Oh she wants the album, it's relaxing for her instead.

And yes, it makes me wanna cry right now wtf!

On another note, my shih tzus hair are shorter than my rottweiler's again. I think they are uglily cute and funny.

the camera shy Dollar,

the fragile and loving Autumn,

and lastly....

my cousin with his epic messages on RC :]

Viewpoint .?

2010-06-12T23:19:00.002+08:00

I can look once, but never twice or worse, longer than twice. It just triggers some where in me. Seems like I have to forget about it or else proclaimed guilty.

If there's one awesome human in this world, or at least be with me now during one of those hardest times that I have to go through, to be my pillar of strength, to remind me to remain strong, whether physically or mentally, or I have to say; does more than the above that I cannot possibly fit into this post, it just has to be none other than

~ Marcus Chia ~

and I truly cherish his presence in my life.

*

I told my mom. I'm fed up. She'll decide for me. I know she will.

~ Good night!

Goodbye bed!

2010-06-12T16:31:00.001+08:00

Adjustable up and down, extra space for your legs, I'd been sleeping on it for the whole week = 8 nights

That's my 2k blanket and thanks to it for being the best item/companion in my life. Else I would have kong-ed out even earlier.

Not that good ya know, especially when the night is cold. Kissed goodbye to it this noon. Suffering from cramps thanks to you little 'bed'! =/

躺在床上的人...

2010-06-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

...是我妈。

没话讲

2010-06-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

I hate how pathetic sometimes things can be. How things are a cycle; the very up then the very down. Given a choice, I'd prefer the moderate.

Apparently my body system is readjusting. I need ample sleep or don't come and touch me. Don't expect me to be normal when the clock strikes 9pm onwards and disturbed sleeps makes me wake up greeting my dogs, 'Good afternoon'.

I don't like life when I'm left hangingg...for my heart can't be any stronger to bear the before, during and god knows what's after =.=

To have faith and believe :]

blimp blimp today is awesome :]

2010-05-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

I had to go through some point-less jam today early in the morning and was nearly late for my newly changed world religion class; which resulted in me cursing non-stop to myself.
Lecturer Mr Vijaya was really funny with all kinds of clean and dirty jokes. Laughed our asses off but they weren't permanent in me (normally I'll continue for hours during the day).

For the first time I felt so bored during the nearly 2 hours break. History had always been interesting and sometimes my ears just wanna rest so badly but can't. Yeah, history's interesting! :]

Sometimes I wonder why can't we humans get to know the real reason behind everything.

After all the headache and fuss that I went through, today was like the rebound of everything. Had a feeling I will see Likky and on purpose I chose Subway as brunch for the day, and YAY i saw him! He told me he liked the smell at Subway?, which then resulted the whole history class including the lecturer knew that I had Subway. The smell is seriously, strong! =.=

The rebound effect became obvious when things became smooth and then smoother at Jalan Raja Muda Aziz. Then I passed Alliance Francaise WOOT! I miss the place a lot and too bad I still can't find my french exercise book. Aigner was finally being awesome for giving me back the bag, besides seeing me like some poor fellow who just loiters at Pavilion with an empty pocket. Bugger discriminatorssss! Plus, Evita Peroni was being nice to me too. Like seriously, I loved this brand since young! Then The Loaf again ergghhhh damn sweet!!

Thus, today was friggin' awesome!

Okay, I really miss my brother now =/

Another segment

2010-05-21T18:22:00.001+08:00

It's not me being very negative at this moment, just that things aren't going quite well. When you're asking me to let everything fall to places just by fate, that sucks. Because how can I not have a say in the game, when I am playing the game.

I would rather fail consistently in every course that I am enrolled when I did not study. At least, that's because I did not study and I deserved to fail. But asking me to wait, meanwhile pray and hope, have high/low hopes, have positive/negative thoughts, be in dilemma, that thoroughly sucks!

Every day I seek for enlightenment. It feels like hell because it's somehow inherited or what I don't know, I get headache super easily and sometimes, giddy/dizzy whatever you call it. And it's really pushing me very badly because nothing seem to work, or nothing is showing me some guide to the light.

It's a whole lot of new experience and I don't wanna live through this like that. I know sometimes we have to bear with certain things in life, but asking me to accept this fact, live through it, congratulations. Because you just took half my life away and I had been having eat/sleep problems..except for dance class.

Crying is of no use, complaining, making noise, grumbling, repeating myself, banging my head to the wall, going to the movies, savoring good food, having good conversations with good companion, all are of no hope to me.

Seems like there hasn't been anything good this year. Besides Speech and the Shanghai Expo, I foresee/foresaw my luck level is like, super low.

While I'm very afraid that I can't find a way out of the dark tunnel. God, please show me a way.

Willing to forgive, ready for you.

2010-05-17T21:19:00.000+08:00

Talk to me if you want me to be happy. Let me know, feel and understand if you want me to be happy. Because if you don't, I will never be happy. Doing things your own way without sharing with me, letting me know, compromising with me can never make me happy. And I was never happier that way, till today.

So how is it giving me more happiness?

If I were to define happiness, it will be when everyone is sharing, caring and loving without hiding anything from each other.

isn't it better to open up and let someone in...

if you really love someone ?

We all loved Shanghai and missed it equally.

Shanghai 2010

2010-05-14T02:31:00.003+08:00

One of the best trips I ever had in my life, where we were put at many different positions, dealt with unexpected incidents, suffered breaking legs, seen the best things in our lives, experienced the best in our lives and lastly, treasured each other and every moment fully in our hearts.

Thanks to 黄爸爸 who suggested me to organize a trip to Shanghai Expo 2010 and for being so sincere to his God. The 3 wonderful people and I myself nearly ended our lives on the very first day itself at the airport. Nevertheless, the entire trip was a blast.

How Yong Jian and I joked then later scowled/cursed at each other, gave me good advises,

how Marcus became such an efficient Jack Sparrow + skilled with Chinese language, gave me a shoulder to lean on,

how Dorothy showed me things from another angle, became Kiera Knightley + skilled with Chinese language and cared for me silently (hehehehehe) ,

how heavy hearted we all were upon leaving,

how all of us loved, cared and shared; these gifts from God are beyond a price.

at KLIA showing off Shanghai Expo tickets. fortunate to get them thanks to teamwork :]

from Malaysia to Malaysia Pavilion at Site B of the Expo, Pudong

Bulgarian rose wine - a toast for all
Bulgarian cuisine

our last and most expensive meal at level 30, Vue at PuXi

I wanna go back to Shanghai!

Should I upload the pictures bit by bit over here, or one shot at facebook? I'm afraid there's too many pictures that 'won't make sense' to you because you don't know what they are. Yet interesting to me.

Germany FTW!

All that I need

2010-05-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

Hello, my name is Kar and my ID is 3505-2891-38.

It's not me calling alone, everyone's looking at that side and I seriously don't know what's gonna happen when all desired doesn't happen. So I don't fancy nor desire now, it's a do happen or die thing.

kaisin says: we even have an extra bed for u here alredi

bed check. car check. kitchen stuff check

Serious matters / Jokes aside, it's been some time since I became a 大老鼠.

It's 1am and I am having a piece of this when parents and I had super bloat-ful seafood dinner at Subang, which was an extreme killer.

The bill summed up to 4 digits where we had to eat with bad ventilation (someone could die), many high, unnecessary charges at a so -not-5 ★ place and lastly, medium taste food when we can find better food at better restaurants! KNN SouthSea!

Hereby I ask for Your mercy and grace, to give me a sincere heart and make me a more humble person. I ask for my destiny to be granted and I know nothing is impossible for You. I believe You're more than enough for me and You are all that I need. In Jesus' name, Amen.

p/s: more and more people are starting to use weuuu. 0_0

It's crazy but I'm going insane,feeling lost confused and ashamed,it's crazy,hope you're feeling my pain,you stole,my heart

2010-05-01T02:21:00.000+08:00

Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you pondering on so much.

Question. What is it?

We haven't been talking for a longggg time considering we used to be like virtual best friends. The link was still there, very quickly fixed back while some atoms were a bit off.

Goodness, sometimes it kills to think.

On a total unrelated note, will be hitting the gym / hot pool tomorrow before Japanese dinner with the parents. It's Labour Day babeh!

Convo 1

Mom: I was told you ordered a cheese cake.

Me: Yeah, ordered already.

Mom: Should have saved the cake for Father's Day.

Me: Oh, I ordered it for Mother's Day! *grins*

Mom: *curi curi smiles*

Convo 2

Mom: Honestly, are you afraid every time you're home alone?

Me: Of ghosts or robbers?

Mom: I've never been afraid of ghosts.
Me: I'm never afraid. Only of nightmares.
Mom: So are you afraid alone at home?
Me: Never. I have one dog outside and 2 dogs inside with me.
Mom: I'm afraid.
Me: How come?
Mom: I've never been home alone.

And I never knew thattttt!

0_0

Oh well, crappiness.

Found this picture taken by Cheryl Leong.

This piece of cake was bought by someone who self named lobster most recently and I was fed by CherylLeong in the car. I wanna eat cake so badly and yay, cheese cake tomorrow :]

Good night world!

when you have nothing to worry but eat, sleep and love, life is a bliss.

2010-04-29T01:03:00.002+08:00

Taylor's stickie, so not written by me and stuck on the shelf!

crazy shit had enough of 'shits' at my place, look at his horny look!

Linda Lau l JoannaBelle Ng l KarYan Ng

Linda and YongJian had been at my place for the past 5 days and right now, it feels so empty.

Linda was like a sister's existence while it was enough with YongJian's loud voice and loud music (something not quite normal at my place).

It seems like it was only Marcus and I who both ended our finals on Tuesday. Anyone sama dengan kita, or earlier? I don't think so. Finals was disastrous, God knows what happened to me and Accounting, and I have nothing to say for Psychology. While I'm hoping for a good grade for Speech. Seriously good one, for I roughly know where I'm standing.

What's there to 'do' in my mind now:

study for Japanese (ain't easy, nothing's easy but I really need to work my ass),

service the car that I drive daily (I love the car mann :] ),

and lastly, Restaurant City.

I tried playing once last time but had no idea at all how it works.

I officially got hooked up with it yesterday, thanks to KhaiJhek while Stella shall be my inspiration to upgrade my level.

But this is only gonna be for this break.

Stella says,'Welcome to the hell of addiction,'

Weuuuuuuuuuuuu~!

Things are happening really fast. Both bro and sis are coming back, this is so WOW!

Pictures.

How I used to fully utilize my daily planner..eventually losing touch.

January '10

February '10

March '10

April '10

See the two black moles on the paper?

I'll never forget how lame a lecturer can be, at college. Like seriously, *roll eyes*

Aus tumn going to the club :]

That's all folks!

And so Shanghai is on. :]

SPCH 105

2010-04-20T20:53:00.001+08:00

"As this semester is coming to an end, I have seen most of my classmates improve tremendously, and that I am happy for everyone,''

Today marks speech class graduation for me as my team mates and I presented our final speech.

I felt good when I was delivering my speech. Looking back, how stupid was it to feel so nervous (for no reason) for the Introductory Speech. After listening to many people's feedback, I decided to open up and feel comfortable with everyone.

The times when I had debates, drama competitions, speech during assemblies back in high school, I never felt anything before. Maybe because I felt assured, that everyone was behind me and everyone was family.

The one experience where my hands were trembling and couldn't stop trembling. It was like a phone vibrating on the table. Holding it tightly (so that it doesn't move), it still movessss.

And that was my experience on Debate at Quanta 2007. The moments that will never slip off my mind.

I have to say that everyone speaks, shares, laughs together in speech class; the closest thing that I can call 'family' in ADP when my last experience was in high school.
Thus, Speech class is the closest family class throughout the whole time of mine in ADP.

It could be a little too late to only realize it now; however, the semester is coming to an end and I must say that, Speech class was something that I truly cherish most. The funny, the retard, the joker, the good speakers, the not so good speakers, the everybody. This everybody all had shared their 'personal' issues upon giving speeches and maybe that's how we all felt closer.

The ones whom I couldn't stand not giggling when they gave their speeches, I'm so sorry I really had no intention and couldn't help myself (if only you guys knew me better). Namely Louis and Steven for remembering me being the 'cause' of them not able to concentrate well when giving their speeches. Sorry but I'm still nice. :]

To be honest, I felt so diffident halfway during the semester for speech. My score for Fairy Tales wasn't up to par while I was 'critiqued' from head to toe for the Introductory speech. Thanks to my supportive peers, I improved for the next one, Informative speech. Namely Linda and the always being teased but still loved by me - Ming Huei aka Miang.

Mentioning Linda, she reminds me not to give up. She didn't tell me this directly, but I see this from her. While for Miang, he's always my 'indentation' and computer saver. :]

My team leader this time is someone who sort of made me realize certain stuffs, which, I do not know how to explain. From what another awesome group mate, PhuiJing once said, 'If our group didn't have him, we would have all KO-ed,'' 100% agreeable.

It was fun working with these three guys, Steven, MK and PJ. I respect Steven for his positiveness and his patience. While MK, for trying so hard to not let the group down and for PJ, who is sometimes a real pain in the ass but saved himself with his charisma and cuteness.

One joke that occurred between the four of us during discussion:

MK: KarYan, your bag is very nice but time to change.

PJ: You give me 200bucks I give you a new one, plastic bag.

KY: Eh there's a bag called 'I'm not a plastic bag'

..………*someone says something*…………

Anna something….

Anna Sui?

No, that's cosmetics…

All also Anna Anna….Anna Edwards is also a brand wert…

*5 seconds pause*

LAUGHS

I received all positive comments on my Final speech and to recall what Anna Edwards said about me, it really paints a smile on my face. For the first time, unexpectedly, it was so short, so simple and so sweet. :]

One more class on Thursday where I'll only be relaxing at the seats. Good luck people. I quote from what my best friend always reminds me, ''Remember to do your very,very best, because that's just your one time," I told this to PhuiJing before he sum up for our presentation, while both of us received one similar comment from Anna Edwards, which was, ''Nearly full marks,"

So to those on Thursday, do give in your best!

Pictures :]

Intro of the group

waiting for my turnnnnn

YAY!

Not that pro. Most of my contents are from the textbook. That's why, choose the topic well to ease everything. :]

Q & A session

Steven l AnnaEdwards l PhuiJing l KarYan l MunKong

the oh so dedicated group leader of mine - Steven Ong Zu Hao

speech anxiety retards

we're not anxious people, just to trick you

Lee Phui Jing - the always praised and like-able speaker :]

wun lao bu, who came all the way to watch me.

Thank god I did my very best, got good remarks, didn't let her down.

Leong Ming Huei, one of my oldest friend in ADP. He never fails to help me with computer stuffs.

Oh I was so impressed when he did a little thing to something I thought was a BIG thing. Guess how he converted a 'retarded' file back to normal. Occurs often when you use a Mac then Windows!

Tan We Lia - my form 3, form 4 classmate. The all rounder girl.

weuuuuuuuu Steven check it out mannn. PEEP TOE HEEEEEEEELS

Natasha Upadhay

Feels like some Be_ADP event, she's always the emcee and we're always dressed formal!

PhuiJing is always so cute while Steven can be sampat despite pushing us to work all the time

nice people that I like in ADP. They look so..... :]

2 groups > 8 people > 6 guys > 2 girls

YAY!

Last but not least,

Happy birthday Marukus :]

Final speech

2010-04-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

I had been looking at the computer screen daily for the past week with a minimum average of 5 hours per day....

Accounting, Psychology, Speech, Speech, Speech, the never ending Speech...until tomorrow.

Everyone is welcomed.

My mom might comeeeeee~! :]

*nervous*

Meanwhile, I'm loving the new NEO >.<

Shanghai Oh Shanghai

2010-04-18T21:27:00.003+08:00

I am desperately seeking for companion to go to Shanghai.

Purpose: Visit and explore Shanghai, main highlight will be Shanghai Expo 2010

Criteria:

Whoever you are, where ever you are on planet Earth:-

family, friend, teacher, parent

As long as I know you, I like you, we two/three/four click, then it's ON!

We'll be together in Shanghai for roughly a week?

Or two?

It can be a duet, trio, quadruplet, preferably a small group.

If you're in America/ Australia/ UK today, it doesn't matter.

The trip will be preferably 2nd week of May onwards.

I might not be taking Summer semester at ADP; thus, I'll be available until June.

In other words, the trip can be ON anytime in June.

Destination is Shanghai.

Shanghai. Shanghai. Shanghai.

[check your holidays]

Less than rm5k.

I found males.

And I'm short of female. I want my sisters, or my girlfriends, or my favorite-est teacher.

Female. Female. Female.

With this trip, it'll be a step closer for me to make a 180 degree turning.

Stay tuned!

Of Unequal Consequences and Dad's 47th birthday

2010-04-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

Two people of the same race, nationality but differ from age, sex, family and brain can do the same thing together but face the aftermath unequally. Weuuuuuuu~!

Too many reasons, too much to justify. All I know is that I was well, and am still well. Because I believe in whatever I do and have my own stands. =D

Last Sunday was dad's birthday and regardless of atas bawah, he is still the one hero that I admire. Oh well, he proves himself so I love him.

Politics aside, it was round 3 for me to the orchard house then to Tualang for prawns (standard routine).

Trips to Tapah had always been filled with 'excitement.'

Round 1

Wasted uncountable time, strength, energy, blood, sweat, petrol, cash and tears exploring the right route to Tualang.

Round 2

BKT at Klang for breakfast. Brunch at Tapah.

Sort of 'open house orchard' day for residents.

Superb local fruits eat all you can.

Durians were really irresistible. Too damn good ones from the place itself thus it's FOC.

Dizzy like cow on the way up to Cameron Highlands thanks to overeating. No more going there again unless you give me helicopter! I was desperate for a helicopter at that time, no joke.

Fresh vegetables steamboat at Cameron Highlands for lunch.

Back to orchard house and had even more durians but slightly controlled, it was 100% durian ice-cream / jelly. Too damn good but really couldn't bear to swallow anymore.

Dinner at Tualang.

Not forgetting, my Macroeconomics book was with me the whole time!

Round 3

I was visualizing one particular shirt when I was in the shower.

As I came out, the birthday boy was in that shirt. YAY!

Okay enough, I realize I haven't been uploading pictures lately.

My second time BKT at this place. First time was brought by my nephew.

This is one good claypot BKT + scallops added by second parents.

the prawn that we favor so much. The truth is that I do not eat prawns, except for this and the gravy/sauce is too GOOOOOOD

men who brought along wives in our trip.

Yeah babeh that's the shirt that I was visualizing when I was in the shower and my dad really wore it!

USC football + Versace Jeans = 47 years old young

This is one random kid that I snapped 'cause I thought he was attractive and cute to me, at least.

I like this place, but I like the owner of this place more for he has inspired me to move my butt man, like seriously!

Good night people!

What helps me reduce stress, when the whole world is stressed.

2010-04-15T16:29:00.000+08:00

To my dearest speech team mates namely Steven and MunKong, wait till I'm less stressed and it'll be my turn to intrude more of you both's privacy. Stop teasing me, arghhhh!

RogerChew seems to be against Bieber.

2010-04-14T13:21:00.000+08:00

And so we all know that Justin Bieber is like the most weeeeeu-ed celebrity out there currently.

I first heard his song when Stella and Carmen passed me the cd that Su-Yiin burned for me, with much love.

Listening to the songs on my journey back home from college, I have to say I had a good time. Because:

i) I didn't know what was gonna come out. It could be some 'weird' noises on purpose or accidental, who knows.

ii) ahem Su-Yiin's not that 'clean', isn't she? ^.^

iii) Tracks after tracks, I swear I didn't know what songs and who were the singersssss...I had to use TrackID that is provided on Sony Ericsson phones to name them one by one.

iv) Sadly at that particular time, Bieber's Baby wasn't that popular yet, I think; thus, it failed to track the song's name.

v) Some time later, Baby had become the most weeeeu-ed song by many people, except for some i.e. the rx8.

vi) Why Roger, why??? Every now and then I sense critics of him in therogsays.

Okay this is just plain blogging, simply to fill up time. Accounting assignment, Psyc acting, Psyc test, Psyc essay, Speech outline...Finals, arghhhh!

My conclusion is, I don't anyhow admire or love Bieber. Just listening to his baby makes me feel, 'baby-ish' I guess. Plus, Marcus was once annoyed by that song. I love to see people's face annoyed! Haha RogerChew I can imagine your turn off face now woot!

Honestly, I think he is trying too hard. Just to piss off 2 people mentioned above. :]

baby baby baby oohhhhhh~

2010-04-08T13:59:00.000+08:00

Parents are back. Things seem fine. Bro looked good and happy. Autumn and Dollar are happy while they had been so cute lately. Meanwhile, there's a Dollar Jr at college (inside joke). Also a Garfield Jr.

I feel comfortable going to college now with my own car after two days of using other cars. My second sister asked me why do cars that I drive always break down. Good question. Thanks to a super mini hole at one of the valves!

I'm still having dreams every night and I was at New York and Tokyo/Taipei last night. Weuuuu. With my eldest sister, how cool!

I think my nostrils are conked out. Sometimes out of the blue, I smell some guinea pig's hair smell. Sometimes Stella's house scent. Sometimes her room smell, sometimes her. Some clothes in my wardrobe has the smell of America - that's the wardrobe smell of my sisters at LA. Yesterday, I swear to God, I smelled the smell of streets at LA, around Ellendale Place. Not kidding!

"Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and it will be given you, and your joy will be complete." - John 16:24

96

2010-04-07T16:51:00.000+08:00

Just as i thought dreams weren't just dreams; they mean something and have meanings for us, just when I thought dreams ought to come true and helping to realize someone's dream would be even better, even cooler, I can now only dream of realizing it.

Accounting test 2 was the true 'potong steam' stuff ever in my life. I told Linda how I am notorious for 'forgetting' how to do (not that I do not know how to do) before the test. First question was some kiddy trick, people never pay attention to such stuffs and they always come out then you'll regret 'cause they're free marks and yay i always lose marks there. Then Q2...I was stoning at the Q2b already, not surpring for I forgotten how to do. 3 minutes later, I resumed. It was just to test me, I know ^.^

Everything was going so smoothly until the last question where I totally got confused and 'forgot' the skill. My score shall be more or less 5/16 for the last question.

And I was visualizing so hard on 96. Now I see 69. ~~FML~~ God bless laaa.

111109

2010-04-02T13:34:00.000+08:00

I see the guy, and he sees me; now.

We saw each other before.

He was once right opposite me; different table.

And it is so awkward right now...

Because the last time we saw each other.....................

Weuuu we actually remember each other's faces >.<

Mind's Sheer Enchantment

2010-03-21T00:55:00.004+08:00

5 years ago, I was in America. I was reminiscing so much after the trip. I missed everything, so badly and yearned to go back there again. Deep in me, I felt that it wouldn't come, not at least another 10 years. Some time later, I was there again. It all came true within months. I stood on my feet at USC, I passed familiar streets, I stepped into Disneyland again. Even better, I managed to go further. To Mexico and to Canada where I experienced the coolest weather ever in my life. I saw Niagara Falls from the other part, basically I can brag that I've seen the whole of Niagara Falls. That was also when I was introduced to ice wine and fell in love with it. I recall exactly the night when it would be my second time leaving the amazing country. So fortunately, the flight was cancelled and I earned the happiest day in my life ever; my sister granted one of my wishes and brought me to Knott's Berry Farm - the milder one. I remember the Pie Shop we went to at the end of the day; the apple toffee.

Right now, I am dreaming of many places at New York. I haven't have enough of New York; everything was at rush during the trip. I have a wish and it is at Fifth Saks Avenue, I have another wish and it is at Metropolitan Museum + the museums nearby, I urge to get back from Rockefella Place to the Christmas tree, from the ice rink to Crabtree & Evelyn, from Timesquare to everywhere that lives in NY.

Wisconsin, I've only an imaginary vision of you in my mind.

As for now, I top CA more than the other two. NY - a vacation will do, and I feel CA so closely. The messy list of stuffs I have listed on my desktop, I will only remove once they are done. My heart beats tremendously fast and I literally feel my feet lifted from the ground to the air repetitively every time I hear some voice tickling behind my ears. And that is when I know I'm going to Six Flags. Magic Mountain is its name and I had been waiting for ever since the second I knew of its existence.

Magic and miracles do happen if you really believe.

Magic Mountain, being so magical, please grant my wish…I mean my inner wish. Then I'll have the chance to sell hamburgers, sandwiches or similar for charity at your place. :]

Weeeuu

2010-03-15T11:29:00.001+08:00

As it is on the title; my new sound effect every now and then :]

I like how I completed my homework on a Friday afternoon, I like how I discipline myself to finish everything before I left the place and I was looking forward.

I like how I disturbed the people who slept in the master bedroom at 2104, I like the meals that we had, I like the crazy moments, but I hate the aftermath of all those shits. FML

It's not just my normal body aching normally, even my stomach aches when I laugh. Tell me what sin did I commit!
I know I disturbed many people, but I got them back =/

I'm feeling so stoned....*brain is shutting down*

99 Reasons Why I Love You

2010-03-07T09:20:00.001+08:00

1. Sexy

2. Cute

3. Awesome

4. Cold

5. Warm

6. Different species

7. Special breed

8. Goes left when everyone goes right.

9. Not necessarily, only at times.

10. You don't know what I'm saying, but never mind ~ :]

11. Courageous

12. Strong

13. ~~Plays~~ Deals well

14. Reads me.

15. Understanding.

16. Stalker.

17. Most horrible human.

18. Mean

19. Hurtful

20. Selfish

21. Still with patience

22. Needs to be reminded.

23. Forgetful

24. Pretentious - in sleeps

25. Contradicts

26. Eyebrows

27. Rudolph's ears

28. Climbs walls

29. tsk tsk tsk

30. Eats sperms

31.Stone.

32. Blank.

33. Bzzzzzz-zkk.

34. Bzzzzzzzzzzz-zkk

35. Bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz-zkk.

36. Bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz-zkk.

37. Oh did you just believed what you read?

38. LOL

39. I bet you were intrigued by some facts....HAHA

40. HAHA

41. HAHAHA

42. HAHAHAHA

43. The fact is that they were just to make you happy ~! :]

44. Not very likely of me for such a post.

45. It's within me and myself.

46. Thus, you were tricked.

47. But the real reason...

48. Is in my heart

49. And, it's not difficult to say it.

50. Just,
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The State of Grace

2010-03-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

Have you ever actually sat back and reflected on all that you've done...whether it is occassionally, rarely, it doesn't matter. You just need to do it, I highly recommend you. Or you've just never?

Because I actually do, whether you think I am spilling some shits on this page that is gonna kill your sight, or pierce your heart, again.

I do sit and reflect, in fact too much; to the extent that sometimes questions like,'Why am I living on this Earth?' pops out. 'Why is there tomorrow for me?' or 'What is the purpose for all these, they're a repetition!'

Allow you to be happy, I am crazy or too immature for you. After all, you are older, you win the case. Here I am admitting.

You are more experienced, you've been through more, you know more.

You have more power, you have more strength, more health and even wealth, I have to surrender to you.

Putting academics aside, basically your flag is high in the air and everyone bows down to you. In fact, too high up in the air.
Because you have proven yourself more than enough times, done more than what an ordinary person would do and you are just so goddess.

Sadly, it seems like many has changed ever since you told me the biggest secret - the hope, the dream, the bomb. To be frank, I missed how we were once like and I hate how environment has changed us.

Every single time, I just agree with you without any further questions or doubts, I let you be how you want to be. Every single time you rant stuffs to me, I listen patiently. Every single time you read your curse essay, whether or not I was in the wrong, I never argued back. I took in the blame, passed your message to another filtering the curses, understood that you never meant them, tolerated and forgave you...And it was always you who was louder on the call, I never raised my voice, neither had I slammed the phone but always ending with a soft and proper, 'bye'.

The trust and bonds that we had between us...well, why let me if you don't trust me enough? Why are you fearing and doubting me when deep in my heart, I have no intention at all of hurting you. I know it takes a second to completely break the trust; which I had done before, also done for the good. Why make me the victim when all I ask for is nothing from you. You may be the mightiest and the greatest, but I sincerely think that you lack something. This something, may be little or even nothing to you. But to me, no words can describe it for all I know when I think about it is that my head shakes and my heart cringes.

Soon or later (I'm assuming it's August 2010 onnwards) you will think I'm like them. Or worse than them. But let me tell you, it's not them who changed me. It's not their fault or my problem. The problem lies in you and yourself, and that I have already changed! Thus, this post.

I'll find a way to the States, to LA where I am destined to for I have faith in that. Or Sydney, at least. And you heard me, my heart cringes.

College...(updated*)

2010-03-05T08:58:00.044+08:00

is happening.

It's great to have a break without my parents with me.

It's great to have an awesome family, far yet near. It's great to have awesome family members. So far, thanks for the little but GREAT help Zau. I love you.

I'll always be a nuisance to you - and I'm haunting you more when I'm at LA =D !

One of the most grateful things that I have in my life is how my mom has the mentality to know how to send me to a private high school. It's not any other schools but just Sri KL. She even wants to send my shih tzus-if they knew how to talk. Not kidding!

fuishhhhhh, necktie so high up - not bad!

Moving on to college where everything starts to evolve in every direction...

The people who remained with me and the new people from all over...life's good.

College...hmmmmmmmm.

I can be so amused by the littlest things that come to me in life...

There are 2 quite fascinating people in my life who I see at college everyday. Mind you, both cute and so adorable, all we discuss about is sex everyday. Ok a little bit of accounting sometimes, but 2 is really enough! Drinking Ribena gives orgasm while cooking in the kitchen, slurping our own home cooked food drives our heads to playing.

We play:

a) Catching - last played in standard 6

b) Adult games ^.^

For no solid reasons during my stoning moments, I have fully maximized the functions that the latest iPhoto has; Faces. It was just a trial initially but the trial soon became the bomb for me. It would be a severe ROFL for me every time I looked at them...and I recommend you try it too, it turns me on, if you know what I did~! =P

It's not orgasm, it's not similar to orgasm, it's just beyond words that I have to simply use the word orgasm to make you get the picture.

Ok anyway maybe I'm just being crazyy, but
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Seriously.....ok never mind.

Oh the one on the left that starts with 'L' and ends with 'inda' just sang to me 0_0
ROFL!

'You're like my daughter'

2010-03-03T15:04:00.000+08:00

It was always there, and the people that fills up there...
that keeps me moving,
on the right track.

Times when I am a bit off the lane,
I'll go back there,
to get back onto the track,
because...
it was always there, and the people that fills up there,
who knows how to push me back onto the track,
who knows that I have to get back onto the track,
because...

They cared,
and they really, really, do care.

I felt so touched,
that I teared,
to know that I still have there to go back to,
to know that the people there are still there for me,
and that they still care for me.

Everyone makes mistake,
but what matters most,
is that you do not repeat the mistake.

Do not repeat the mistake.

Do not repeat the mistake.

Do not repeat the mistake.

Keep these to yourself, and it is between us.

Thank you <3

Week 9th, 2010

2010-02-27T16:56:00.002+08:00

The beginning of the week had been a super stoned one for me...for some reasons.

Things seemed to collide and repel, thus I had a super stoned face almost every day at college.

Thank god we had one day off for calculus, screw the fairy tale for speech, screwed first test of psychology, accounting test coming weekend wtf =.=

I just had TOEFL today. My goodness, never knew time ran out that quickly!

I also had lunch with a guinea pig pet, felt as if we were in the States already eating such food. Also, been super into salad nowadays. But the best salad is still the one I made for myself, according to how I like it + 100% organic stuffs *slurp slurp*

As February comes to an end, things are also getting better. I'd been taking my mom like my best friend, telling her most that I will not tell her and she had been pretty cool and sporting about them. Instead, my dad is going through some pms moments nowadays.

I woke up today feeling fresh being a high school girl, too bad I'm at college. Recalled so much about high school when I was driving to ss15. So much that had changed during these periods, tomorrow's the last day of CNY and what next?

I need to nap, going for the typical dinner routine with my dad later. *headaches headaches*

CA, CA - Here I come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~pictures credit to my cousin, dinner at Semenyih's lake with a super stoned face on 23Feb

How to Kiss Someone

2010-02-24T18:08:00.000+08:00

Step 1
Bring your partner close to you.

Step 2
Making sure that your partner is close enough to you, gently plant a passionate kiss on the cheek, or lips, if and only if you really want it, and your partner is cool with it.

Step 3
You're done :]

And there you go ~ ~ my partner's facial expression is a little zzzZKkk because she's shy, but that's thoroughly fine.

All you need to know is that, she is one person who definitely deserves to be loved, very much from the most bottom part of my heart, fully and truly. Thus, this whole post is regarding her.

Stella Yee Pui San, you were once the sluttest person that I had ever met (don't mind my language), but today you are one whom I heart v v v v v much from the bottom-est part of my heart, and you will always be.

WIth much affection from the small girl who was once an amplifier, the monkey who was once a pain, but a much better person today. Thank you for your enlightenment and presence in my life.

XOXO,

KarYan Ng

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2010-02-22T21:51:00.010+08:00

As I turned 18, I wouldn't say that I am very glad or proud about it. Being legal, being able to do more things than the ones who are below 18, these aren't all the fun and never had I look forward to. I feel that being one year older (not just 18, but yeah…maybe 18*) is where you really need to have critical thinking in your mind. Fooling around yes, but cut down multitudinously.

*One contributing factor for this would be the expectations, thoughts, and perceptions of society. Or in short, this is life on planet Earth. It is that I see more than what I've seen before, understand more than what I used to think I understood before, and finally, learn that the power to determine not the future, but tomorrow is right under our noses, in our hands.

Humans are unique. You say you'd better not go to the east coast of peninsular malaysia at the end of the year. It is true, chances of you losing your life there is way too high. Okay, geographically/historically/scientifically proven CORRECT it is dangerous don't go.

Then, majority of the chinese will never want a house numbered 4. Oh it's bad…it's death. Don't buy it you might just die or have bad luck all the way, the aged will practically have their life cut down by 5-10 years OH NO! Okay never mind, I don't believe in all those, I'm still buying *lists the 10 irrevocable reasons why this house should be bought* All the way throughout the years, no bullshits came and what more, things became bad to good, and in your face, good to better. Look at me now *grins like santa* Since life is so f-ing good and it is about time, I'm migrating to New Zealand. Time to sell this house. And who buys? Ask all and convince all, who wants? Your mother perhaps, it's numbered 4 I'd rather f myself than buy it.

A malay family ends up with the house. 'Empat empat dapat dapat of course we want it!'

See how unique all of us are? Ever wondered, what's in our brain…what formed and created our brains? Just because we have different skin colours, our brains are different. Oh how is our skin and brain related 0_0

The brain and the mind are different, oh REALLY? Your brain has so many different parts, including your mind. I heard there's something called the subconscious mind OH SO COOL right?!!?!

Why compromise so much? For peace yes, not eternal peace. Your tombstone most probably won't have RIP (Rest In Peace) but the undertaker will JUST DO IT because that's the way.

I am compromising because this weekend is my daughter's birthday. I am compromising because this is gonna affect my whole family, I shall try to ignore this issue after all it is not healthy. But but but this issue isn't an ordinary issue I have had enough I am going to die if it is still not solved Oh CNY is coming it's a New Year please no fights no guns just be quiet and have a happy CNY. And then after CNY ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ? *rose wilts*

The sad thing in life is that you're only allowed to take one route at a time, you can't be at two places at a time. If I left to America, I wouldn't have the pictures that I have right now in my camera. So I chose to celebrate CNY 2010 in Malaysia, up to 2 days with my parents. And what happens if I really left to America? I wish the human mind would know since human minds are just so incredible we can do the extraordinary. Sadly, we fail for we can't predict (the weather and earthquakes yes, but not such shits), and once you start thinking about it, you've just entered the first stage of suicide.

So to think or not to think, to compromise or not to compromise, to flee or not to flee, to kill yourself or not to kill…the aftermath is only visible after you select a choice, whether you like it or not.

my second parents with me on my 18th birthday :]

Roses are red, violets are blue, but nothing beats my love towards KarYan =)

2010-02-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

Read at own discretion, I'm pouring everything that comes to my mind at this hour.

I just saw Maksim's comment AGAIN, cool. Thanks for commenting, and I miss you too ^.^

Oh calculus one class off after CNY! *screamsssssss and tears of joyyyyy*

I'm blogging with a non-recycle polycarbonated material laptop, if you know what I'm talking about ^.^

I just read someone's blog AGAIN, cool. So cool to the extent that all I can say is, nothing works without trust. And it is the trust that you do not have in me, and I fully understand because who doesn't believe their own eyes? As lame and as traditional as the saying goes, seeing is believing. Fuck this shit. You either choose to believe my words or your own eyes. Since you for sure choose the latter, what more can I say?

I'm missing someone right now. I feel like kissing you so badly and tell you I'm so sorry for everything.

Everything at home / intra-business affairs seem fine, or at least, I see the pieces of puzzle coming back together.

I sort of forgotten how CNY is like, for the atmosphere this year around isn't quite normal, but oh well, it's my last year celebrating it in Malaysia before I leave to wherever I'm destined to complete my freaking degree! Therefore, shall try to celebrate it to the maX ^.^

Oh Accounting test and Toefl and Fairy Tale speech after CNY, this is so GREAT! Tell me to play or to study?

the so called guinea pig face XD !

also my current facebook profile picture =D

2010-02-10T16:50:00.002+08:00

regardless of what is happening, i love you.

Guys are painful; I mean the ones with lesser EQ.

2010-02-09T13:32:00.002+08:00

Like seriously, look at the title!

I've had enough, I'm sick, I've done all that I could in the past, they're all the same. I don't care if they're of different people or what, they have one similarity and it is that they have the fucking Y chromosome. SAME.OLD.SHIT. Enough is enough. Don't talk to me because I think you need more EQ. Yes, guys with high IQ have low EQ. I don't care if I'm wrong or proven oh so wrong and dumb, but I say what I want to say because yes, I'm a fucking arrogant bitch! So what?

Because I don't care what people think of me, and I do whatever as I please!
Guys with lower or lesser IQ I don't mind, but please, you need to know what EQ is, before I consider dating you, or at the very least, make you my BBF. :]
Or else you'll just be dragged into my immature guys list, just like dragging a thumbnail at your desktop to the trash!

I have family matters to deal with, uni applications, my dogs to take care off, speech and calculus to look at, psychology test to look forward to, my mom needs more attention at her plants, my brother bugs me on my phone, my darlings tell me they need more sex, Dollar has no CNY shirt she has gained more weight but now she is so bald I think she should fit, and you expect me to look at you, oh so mature and high EQ guy!

Oh so you're so not happy with me right now, being so close with a guy named Marcus Chia, hanging around with him so much that kills your sight, and thennnnnnn~? Seriously, go fuck yourself.

so these are my darlings, whom I'll be hanging out with again this Friday ~ :]

Bzzzzzzzzk-k-k

2010-02-01T17:20:00.001+08:00

So that's my new sound effect! ^.^

Seated in Linda Lau's room typing with her laptop, hearing her read/grumble on her speech, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzKKkk. And I haven't started a single word WOOT!

Life's pretty interesting lately...

Dramatic people around me. Mom's insisting I celebrate my birthday, practicing my rebutting skills with dad everyday at home (oh it's friendly debate, no loud voices, just gentle gentle), Linda's being a baby, Marcus' being 0_0, high school friends are leaving to Australia...some are so deary, some are so nice, nah everyone who I remember belonging to 5 Delta'08 is nice :]]]]]]]]]]]]]

And California, here I come, I don't care =P !

baby Linda, sex-c KarYan, baby Marcus

HAHA =D !

Would you let me know what's going on in the coming days? So much to feel, how am I taking them...

2010-01-27T17:10:00.002+08:00